When he had received the drink, Jesus said, "It is finished." With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. ~John 19:30
He wants to save you. He wants you to live in heaven, for eternity, with him. Salvation is a gift. Salvation is simple.
...if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved. ~Romans 10:9, 13
All you need to do is believe that Jesus loves you, that he died for you, and ask Him to come into your heart. It really is that simple. Then you need to get a good bible, one that is easy for you to read, and find a good local church to get plugged in to.
If you have taken this step, please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I would love to pray for you and with you and share in your new found joy!